just can't bring myself to talk to him... don't know what to say...not sure what to do.... miss him so much,  wondering does he think of me, i think of him all the time. even when he left he hurt a lot of people including me! but when he's back i think it hurts everyone more i guess. i wish he would just talk to me. should i wait for him to make the first move? should i wait? should i make the fi…